Imagine, (those of you with Mac computers, the Spaces application)...one large square with a horizontal and a vertical line...creating 4 squares within that one big square. Each square had the same image...a dense forest/jungle...ferns, dense foliage...no movement, just a still picture.
Then, zap...my field of view is just one of the pictures, and the light slowly, slowly begins to dim to near black. Then...zap...lights up, and I'm looking one of the other, identical images. Slowly, slowly, the light begins to dim to near black.
The voice in my dream says "this is the experience of nearing death". Just a dimming of the lights.
The message inside the dream also said "It's not your time. And...it's not scary".
The other piece of info that showed up as I was waking from the dream is that all those squares were realities, and my experience of life, or death, was nothing more than an experience of which reality, which square, I'm in at the time.
So...dat's it. I debated for a day about whether putting a dream on this page was just self-indulgent wanker-wanker. I'm still not clear...but my impulse was to go ahead. I'm really in the middle of the low blood-count thing, so for the next few days, I'm hangin'. Dreaming.So much for going out to hear some music. And as I found out yesterday, jeez, my mighty Steinway is a bit out of tune after 7 months on the road. She does sound pretty, though.
I was just reading a book called Self-meditation and thinking about you. One of the quotes was "Treat everything as though it were a dream" and another was "Disappear in the dance". Interesting that prompted me to check in on your blog.
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing.
Live in the music.
diana
Good morning!!
ReplyDeleteI am thinking about you both today. Angel is the caretaker on our property and yesterday he showed me where the oregano, lemongrass and ginger is growing. The oregano bush was taller than me and smelled so great it was like oregano plus!!We spent some time talking about the different ways those three things can be used for cooking and natural remedys.
There are so many things growing around here. I am lucky to have Angel teaching me. I am also learning lots of Spanish.
I hope you can eat some ice cream today!!
diana
Hey Lee, a painting dream! Sounds a little like some pictures I've been looking at. All those possibilities. All real and not real. So my newest thing is to explore the good stuff that can happen when NO mirror neurons are firing. It's a little like your forced retreat. You look at a monochrome painting and there's nothing there but the color, or sometimes no color. Your brain just calms down and quits the nonsense -- and like that meditative experience, all this stuff starts to surface. You just watch it surfacing and say "that's ok."
ReplyDeleteIt's ok.
Love you lots,
Bonnie